It's been a while since I wrote here. I have struggled with desire and motivation for nearly a year now. I have the desire, I lack the motivation. It's not permanent. It's a phase… probably. Hopefully.
2025 was a year. The deaths stand out in my mind. The lack of outside activities is another. We didn't go camping as much, didn't paddle as much, didn't ride as much. It was a tough year.
Enough dwelling. 2026 is three days old and it's time to look forward, not backward. We need to be mindful of our past, not live in it.
For 2026 I set myself 3 goals:
- Read 12 books.
- Beat (not necessarily complete to 100%) 12 video games.
- Close all three rings, every single day this year.
Of the goals, the first two are easily doable, providing I substitute motivation for drive and/or habit. The third is doable, but does not account for uncontrollable circumstances. If I have a flu that kicks my ass, I will not likely burn the 600kcal or 30 minutes of exercise or 12 hours of uprigth mobility that gets the heart rate above resting. Still, I have come close before. I usually get past flu season and well into July when things fall apart. This summer year I need to detach motivation. Motivation doesn't always work because life gets in the way. Plus, I already finished my first book. Ready Player One by Ernest Cline.
I didn't recall the events of the book as I was reading it, the movie version stood out more. They made a lot of changes for the film and I'm not entirely sure why, nor do I have any desire to find out. I did find myself being frustrated with all the exposition and filler in the book. I believe it was written for a younger audience, whom may not know what a vinyl record is. Though I'm not sure thatv was it either. Perhaps the book might have been a short story if they assuemed the reader could do independent research. Perhaps Ernest had a word quota to fill. Perhaps all the references would have been lost on others who are not as familiar. I would recommned the book to everyone who is the least bit nostalgic for the 80's. Despite my grievances, it was entertaining. The book was also way better than the awesome movie.